Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Confessions of a recovering worry - wart

"Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in HIM" - Ps. 62:5

One thing I've found is that it was easy for me to slip into a life of worry and fear and miss out on a life of joy. I like control. I love to plan. I make lists, spreadsheets, bullet pointed documents for just about everything in my life. But somehow I'm figuring out that I'm not really "in" on God's plans. I'm missing out. I'm over here with my folders and my label maker and He is just waiting for me to just come and spend some time with Him. If I just sat and chatted with Him, shared wtih Him my grand plans then maybe He would be able to give His input. I feel like every time I try to grab control of things everything slips out of my grasp. I control nothing beyond myself. I keep running into the same wall, so much so that the top of my head is completely flat! And in the process I've lost my joy. See if I try to control everything then I'm the one worrying about everything. If I just LET GO of those things that I can't control and give them up to the Father who created EVERYTHING then I won't have to worry so much. Or even worry at all. So why do I have such a problem letting go?

Rob Bell said some interesting things about Joy and Fear. (I feel like you could easily substitute "Worry" for Fear)

"Fear is about the unknown.
Joy is about what's known.

Fear is about what's not come.
Joy is about what's already come.

Jesus Christ has come already and will come again."

Anyway, those are my random notes from Mr. Bell. :)

1 comment:

noyb said...

I have fount that to reach any goal you have to start with baby steps. Next time you want to make a spread sheet, don't. Let someone else do it or see if the situation really even needs the spread sheet.

In Christ
Matt